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A dream that I had and a couple of paragraphs on following your bliss:
I had a really peaceful dream last night. My dad and I were in I think Chile, where I want to study abroad. We were chillin’, backpacking or hiking or something, and just drinking in the absolute beauty and peace of the place. I was following my bliss, and my dreamself, my regularself, and dad all knew it. There were some cool tree formations that I checked out, and just stuff to explore and plenty of time to explore it in. It was really really nice – and I woke up early, peacefully, and not tired.
hmmm…. How can this not mean something? I went to sleep thinking about if I wanted to go to Chile or New Zealand, and I dreamed about Chile and woke up refreshed and stuff….. hello Cleo, so glad you could make it today!
It’s strange, because I always assume that everyone else is just like me deep down inside, and they just express themselves differently. But I assume that following your absolute bliss is something that everyone wants to do. I assume that when people do things, make big decisions, they do what they truly want to do. I know that everyone has hard decisions – like if I want to work at NIST this summer. I’m not sure, because I’ve basically been offered a job there, but I already know that not only is it what I want to do with my life, I’m not even sure I’ll enjoy it. The main pull is that there’s a chance that I do like it – don’t knock it ‘till you’ve tried it – and I don’t want to rule out that kind of work yet. But it would be nice to rule it out, to try something new. Because I do like EE stuff sometimes, I like learning new things above all, but… not much about the list that my interviewer and I made excited me. This is a hard decision. I want money, I want to take this job just to take it, but I know that it is not my bliss. And I assume that everyone always has their deep down desire for life in their mind when they make these decisions.
This assumption was led into doubt when I told two of my friends about Chile. Some of the people at olin think that it’s kind of cool that I just picked a place that I want to go, and then went from there. But my roommate keeps worrying about the fact that I don’t speak Spanish and so how can I pass my classes? And my other friend asked me if they had a good program there. I probably do not express myself and my desires in an understandable way, because I assume that they are already in my head, and know my motivations and desires and stuff.
But I never believed my father when he said that most of the world can never just up and follow their bliss, because of fear, because of childhood forming that told them that they need to establish themselves, need to start early climbing the social ladder, and everything like that. Fuck that, dude.
There is time enough for everything you could want to do, as long as you make the time for it.
If you’re not living in bliss, what’s the point of living?
I had a really peaceful dream last night. My dad and I were in I think Chile, where I want to study abroad. We were chillin’, backpacking or hiking or something, and just drinking in the absolute beauty and peace of the place. I was following my bliss, and my dreamself, my regularself, and dad all knew it. There were some cool tree formations that I checked out, and just stuff to explore and plenty of time to explore it in. It was really really nice – and I woke up early, peacefully, and not tired.
hmmm…. How can this not mean something? I went to sleep thinking about if I wanted to go to Chile or New Zealand, and I dreamed about Chile and woke up refreshed and stuff….. hello Cleo, so glad you could make it today!
It’s strange, because I always assume that everyone else is just like me deep down inside, and they just express themselves differently. But I assume that following your absolute bliss is something that everyone wants to do. I assume that when people do things, make big decisions, they do what they truly want to do. I know that everyone has hard decisions – like if I want to work at NIST this summer. I’m not sure, because I’ve basically been offered a job there, but I already know that not only is it what I want to do with my life, I’m not even sure I’ll enjoy it. The main pull is that there’s a chance that I do like it – don’t knock it ‘till you’ve tried it – and I don’t want to rule out that kind of work yet. But it would be nice to rule it out, to try something new. Because I do like EE stuff sometimes, I like learning new things above all, but… not much about the list that my interviewer and I made excited me. This is a hard decision. I want money, I want to take this job just to take it, but I know that it is not my bliss. And I assume that everyone always has their deep down desire for life in their mind when they make these decisions.
This assumption was led into doubt when I told two of my friends about Chile. Some of the people at olin think that it’s kind of cool that I just picked a place that I want to go, and then went from there. But my roommate keeps worrying about the fact that I don’t speak Spanish and so how can I pass my classes? And my other friend asked me if they had a good program there. I probably do not express myself and my desires in an understandable way, because I assume that they are already in my head, and know my motivations and desires and stuff.
But I never believed my father when he said that most of the world can never just up and follow their bliss, because of fear, because of childhood forming that told them that they need to establish themselves, need to start early climbing the social ladder, and everything like that. Fuck that, dude.
There is time enough for everything you could want to do, as long as you make the time for it.
If you’re not living in bliss, what’s the point of living?
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